BeYOUtiful: My Story

     Part of this journey is knowing the story of your guide, me!!  I want to tell you my "testimony" or my story.  

     I want to start from the very beginning.  I never really cared about what I wore, and sometimes when I did try to look nice, I was proud of my outfits.  I now look back and think "I wore that?!".;) 

     I think where my inspiration first started was when I started blogging.  Specifically when I found A Pinch of Classy.  I am now a contributor there so maybe you can check it out.

     At one time I was very dissatisfied by my looks.  I felt like I was completely fat, undesirable, and ugly.  I became so absorbed in the way I looked and how I didn't look good at all.

     I remember literally having a mini breakdown in a dressing room (a private breakdown by the way, there was no shouting or screaming lol!) 

      But you know what I mean, the thought "I just don't look good in anything!" has crossed all of our minds at one time or another I think.

     I started to try to eat less and exercise more.  I never got anywhere, trust me!  I have way to much of a sweet tooth!

  One day I asked my brother (I can talk to him about a lot of things, he's only 2 years younger than me, we're pretty close and often give each other advice ), "Do you think I'm pretty?  Please tell me honestly."  And then he said "Yeah.  Of course!"  I've had lots of people tell me before that I am a very pretty girl, actually.  I say that with all humility, but it's part of my story.  

      My point is that I was blinded to what was in front of me.  I didn't see the beauty of me, I saw all of the defects.  I now like to think of us all as "beautifully flawed".

     I now know that I am not ugly, in fact, I am beautiful.

     This will give you a picture of me, when I myself cannot.  I am 5'6", fluctuating from 120 to 125 lbs.  I have brown hair and brown eyes.  I wear a size 3 or 4 in pants most of the time.  I wear a size small in most sizes.  I thought I was ugly and fat.  I think I was wrong.

     It's our society that gives us this.  We don't have to be size 00, it's not even healthy!  Take a look at what some models look like without all of the photo shopping-

Even look at what Disney and Barbie is showing us-

     It's actually really sad.

     Back to my story.  I came to the realization that I am beautiful, we are all beautiful.  I now feel ok about how I look.  I try to control my eating and exercise to keep my body healthy.  I still struggle with my body and looks at times, but I think even the most self-confident person does.

     I decided I wanted to share all that I learned with you in this series I thought that and that I could learn as well along the way.:)